My bible study group, BSF (Bible Study Fellowship), is studying the book of John. I’ve never studied this book in its entirety before and I’ve already learned so much. This week we’re in chapter 12. Jesus is having supper and Mary anoints His head and feet with oil. Later in the chapter the Bible points out that many of the Jewish rulers believed in Jesus, but did not share their beliefs openly because they did not want to be put out of the synagogue by the Pharisees. Then this verse follows:
“for they loved the approval of men rather than the approval of God.”
John 12:43 NASB
In the NKJV, the word approval is translated to praise. I read this verse at least 5 times because this is me! So me! They LOVED the approval of men MORE than the approval of God. I sometimes get super nervous about what others will think once I hit the post button because I want to be approved. Receiving praise feels really good doesn’t it? Living and loving mans approval more than God’s is just not ok for me. I’m realizing I enjoy mans approval more than Gods when I put myself in uncomfortable situations like putting my life and opinions out there.
I look to the Lord for help in all things that I do. I know the Lord has given me the opportunity to share my life with you all and I’m beyond thankful that you care to read what I have to say. But when I put myself out there I quickly forget to rest in the Lord’s approval and find myself strictly focusing on what others think; even having some anxiety until I receive positive feedback. Ultimately, I need to decrease in order for Him to increase (John 3:30).
Man did not die on the cross for my sins. Man did not give me eternal life and man definitely is not perfect! So why would I love man’s approval rather than Gods? Because I’m human and the world will always be there to feed my flesh.
I’m thankful that I’m always finding something new in myself that only the Lord can help me get through. Now that I know this about myself I will be asking the Lord to fix my eyes on Him. The question I’m going to continue to ask myself is: Am I more focused on me or am I more focused on what the Lord is doing through me and the circumstances around me?
PS: If you’ve never heard of BSF it’s a nondenominational Bible study that has groups that meet all over the world! They strictly study the Word of God. No fluff! Feel free to message me if you’d like to know more or check out there website: https://www.bsfinternational.org